Feelings

 Chapter 14 – Feelings

EPOV

Spending the weekend at Sookie’s farmhouse had been great. It was even better once her friend Tara had fallen into a sugar induced coma and we finally got to finish what we had started and stopped all day long. The search of the attic didn’t turn up anything helpful, but it was nice being able to see where Sookie had grown up. I also had a good laugh when Bubba’s drug training kicked in and he ‘alerted’ next to a side table drawer in Jason’s living room. I wasn’t going to say anything, but Sookie was very persistent wanting to know what I was laughing at. I’d never seen her so angry and my laughing didn’t help Jason’s cause at all, but I couldn’t help it. I still found her to be very sexy, even when she was yelling. I admit to having been with a lot of women over the years, too many probably, but I never felt anything close to what I felt being with Sookie.

I loved waking up with her every morning and falling asleep with her in my arms every night. I loved the way she laughed and how her smile always reached her eyes. I loved the way she smelled and the sounds she would make as we made love. I loved the way she hummed to herself when she cooked and how she teared up watching old movies. I even loved the way she had to line up her shoes in perfectly straight line causing me to kick one out of place just to see her glare at me and fix them once more. I loved her. I hoped she felt the same way but a part of me was afraid she didn’t and I hadn’t said the words yet because I knew I couldn’t take the rejection.

I woke up early Monday morning and found myself tangled up in the sheets and completely wrapped up in Sookie’s naked body. Her head was resting on my shoulder and she had one arm draped across my chest and one leg hooked around both of mine. I loved watching her while she slept. She was so beautiful and I found watching the rise and fall of her chest as she slumbered soothing. I would stay like this forever with her if I could.

As the darkened sky started to lighten with the rising sun Sookie began to stir. “Mmm…Eric…yes…right there…” I had discovered early on that she sometimes mumbled in her sleep, but I couldn’t always make out what it was she was saying. This time, I had no doubt what she was saying and I had a pretty good idea what she was dreaming right now.

My dick sprang to life with her words as she pressed her core against my hip rubbing against me in her sleep. My right hand started trailing up and down her back while my left one ran along her leg that was on top of me from her knee towards her center. Fuck. She was already wet.

I slowly turned my body, rolling her over onto her back as her arms fell to each side of her body. I hovered over her nuzzling my face into the crook of her neck and inhaled her sweet scent before trailing wet kisses along her collarbone down to her breasts. I ran my tongue around one dusty pink nipple before taking it into my mouth and flicking it with my tongue while my hand caressed the other.

I felt Sookie’s hand come to rest on my head, holding me to her breast, and looked up to see that her eyes were still closed but her lips had parted and her breathing had become heavier. I moved my mouth to her other breast while my hand ran down her stomach to her mound. I suckled at her breast as my fingers ran up and down her slit getting completely coated in her arousal before slipping a finger inside of her. A moan escaped her lips as her hip bucked up into my hand and she gripped my head tighter, weaving her fingers into my hair.

“Oh Eric…” Without stopping I looked up to see Sookie’s eyes opened halfway and filled with lust. The feelings she evoked in me were staggering. I could probably come just looking at her. I rubbed my straining cock along her thigh before making my way further down her body. My eyes came upon her glistening folds and as I leaned forward I looked back into her eyes as I lightly licked over her bundle of nerves causing her to gasp and then cry out.

Using her hand that was still holding onto the back of my head she pulled me back to her begging, “Please baby…” I doubt I could deny her anything, but definitely not this. I thrust my tongue inside of her, lapping up everything she had to give while circling her clit with my thumb. She held my head in place as she rode my tongue whimpering and moaning with each lick. When I knew she was teetering right on the edge I sat up on my heels while picking her up and impaled her on my cock. She screamed as she came immediately and wrapped her limbs around me holding on while I held still feeling her inner walls clamping down on me as her orgasm subsided.

I took one of her nipples back into my mouth and held her hips in place as I thrust into her slowly, pulling out until only the tip pressed against her before plunging back in. She wiggled her hips urging me to move faster, but I maintained my rhythm wanting to draw it out as long as possible. She buried her face into my neck licking and sucking wherever her lips touched. As she made her way up to my ear she darted her tongue inside of it before growling out, “Fuck me Eric. I need you to fuck me hard.”

FUCK ME. I threw her back down onto the bed while I was still inside of her and pumped in and out of her so hard and so fast that I was sure we were going to come out on the other side of the box spring. Her screams and cries of “YES!” over and over propelled me on until we both shouted, climaxing at the same time.

I lay on top of her waiting for my breathing to go back to normal before pulling out and flopping on the bed beside her. I pulled her body back up against mine and she curled right back into me as she had been when I woke up.

I looked into her eyes and I could see the love I had for her mirrored back at me. This was it. I wasn’t afraid anymore. I needed to tell her.

As I opened my mouth to say the words my phone rang. The phone was on Sookie’s side of the bed and she turned over to see the caller ID.

Picking up the phone, she handed it to me saying, “It’s Alcide.” She leaned down and kissed the tip of my nose before getting out of bed and going into the bathroom.

Answering the phone, I snapped “What?” I could hear the shower getting turned on. If I hurried I could join her and tell her I loved her.

“Well good morning to you too. Did I interrupt something?”

“Yes, so spit out whatever it is you have to say before I hang up on you.”

“One of the patrols spotted Madden a few minutes ago. They chased him into an abandoned warehouse and called for back-up reporting shots fired. We’re mobilizing the S.W.A.T. team now, so get your ass in gear.” All I heard after that was a dial tone.

Shit. I had no time now. I wasn’t going to say ‘I love you’ for the first time and then run out the door. I decided to tell her later on that evening so we could celebrate properly. I jumped out of bed and threw some clothes on before I poked my head into the bathroom to tell Sookie I was leaving. I gave her brief rundown on what was going on and promised to call her later with the details. I gave her one more quick kiss and flew out the door.

The S.W.A.T. team mobilized and arrived on the scene within 20 minutes. The building was part of an industrial park and had been a manufacturing plant at one time, but had vacant for years. It was surrounded by similar abandoned buildings as well as overgrown weeds and scraps of metal and wooden pallets scattered everywhere. The building itself was well over 20,000 square feet with six separate entrances and its maze-like interior and three separate levels offered Madden plenty of places to hide and fire on anyone approaching.

Team A scaled the warehouse from the outside to enter the building from the top and work their way down while we, Team B, entered from the street level. We cautiously went into the building through the entrance Madden had used and broke up into teams of two once we were inside. Alcide and Clancy paired off and starting sweeping to the left while Chow and I swept to the right. We tried to maintain radio silence to give Madden less of an advantage of hearing us coming only whispering into our mic’s when necessary and using hand signals to communicate with each other, but Quinn and the others could watch the live feed from the small fiber optic cameras we wore on our headsets from the command center bus’s surveillance monitors.

Chow and I had swept through our half of the first level with no signs of Madden so we took the stairs to start searching on the next level up. Alcide and Clancy came up a minute after us and started on their half of the building. A couple of minutes later I heard movement on the stairs. I signaled to Chow and we quietly descended the stairs while looking for the source of the noise. As we made our way around the back of the building I watched as Chow was pulled into a back hallway. Rushing forward with my gun drawn I cautiously peered around the corner and saw Madden standing behind Chow with his gun held to Chow’s temple.

“Drop your gun or your partner here is going to die.”

Madden looked so calm and his voice was steady as if we were having a normal conversation. It worried me. I knew this hallway branched off into other rooms and walkways since we had already been through here earlier. I just had to stall until help arrived. He wasn’t talking very loud so I didn’t know if Alcide or Clancy would be able to hear him from the upper level, but Quinn would be able to see what I was seeing from the camera and relay the information to them.

Keeping my weapon pointed at Madden I said, “Put down your weapon Madden. You know there’s no way you can walk away from here. Don’t make it worse for yourself by shooting a cop.”

Madden actually grinned saying, “We’ll see.” He must be a fucking psychopath. I kept my attention on Madden but was starting to get worried when I didn’t hear any radio traffic from Quinn on what was happening. I was praying my camera feed hadn’t gone out when I spotted movement coming up behind Madden. The flicker of my eyes from Madden to behind him caused him to turn slightly to see what I was looking at and I chose that moment to make my move. The angle he had turned caused Chow to block my shot so I leapt forward and to the side to get a better line on Madden, but before I could get my aim on him he fired his gun.

It all happened in slow motion. Blood sprayed out everywhere and Chow dropped to the floor. I continued raising my gun to fire on Madden when I saw Quinn coming up behind him with his gun drawn in front of him. I was dumbfounded when Madden moved passed Quinn and disappeared down another walkway as Quinn kept advancing towards me.

“HE’S GETTING AWAY. WHAT IN THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOU?”

With Quinn in front of me I automatically lowered my weapon and knelt by Chow. Half of his skull was missing along with his brain. He was dead. Rage flowed into my veins and as I stood to go after Madden I saw Quinn standing in front of me with his weapon still held out in front of him. I only had a second to register the look of regret in his eyes when he said, “I’m sorry man” and then I heard the gunfire.

I was shocked when it was Quinn that dropped to the floor and not me. He was clutching at his left thigh which was bleeding profusely and I saw Alcide and Clancy come up from behind him with their weapons trained on Quinn.

We left Clancy guarding Quinn and took off in the direction I saw Madden heading yelling into our mic’s the location he was last seen going. After a few minutes it was apparent he had gotten away when we came across a back entrance that no one was guarding from the outside.

Command scrambled for the helicopter to come and search by air while Alcide and I rode to the hospital with Quinn. All he kept saying over and over was “I’m sorry” until Alcide finally yelled at him to shut the fuck up. Alcide kept him under guard while the doctor tended to his wound before we transported him back to the station. I was sitting in the hallway with my head in my hands trying to get the picture of Chow’s dead body out of my mind when I heard Sookie yelling, “ERIC!”

I looked up and stood to catch her in my arms as she ran to me and buried her head in my chest crying, “I heard one of you were killed, but didn’t know who. ” All I could do was hold on to her. I couldn’t form any words yet.

I looked down as she pulled back from me, pushing my arms away as she shook her head back and forth. “This is the second time in 10 days that you could’ve been killed.”

“But I’m okay,” I tried to pull her back into my arms but she pushed me away again. She stared at my chest as she said, “I don’t know if I can do this. I don’t like feeling this way. I don’t know if I can live like this.”

What? I felt my knots forming in my stomach. “Sookie, look at me. What are you saying?”

Slowly she raised her eyes to mine and she whispered, “I just don’t know. I need time to think.” Then she turned and walked away, taking my heart with her.